| do you ever just get that feeling where you don't want to talk to
anybody? you dont want to smile, and you don't want to fake being
happy. but at the same time, you don't know exactly what is wrong
either. there isn't a way to explain it to someone who doesn't already
understand. if you could want anything in the world it would be to be
alone. people have stopped being comforting.. and being alone never
was. at least when you're alone no one constantly asks you what is
wrong and there isn't anyone who wont take 'i don't know' for an
answer. you feel the way you do just BECAUSE. you hope the feeling will
pass soon and that you will be able to be yourself again, but until
then all you can do is wait.. |
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|  no electricity at mcD today, so i got to go home early! yay!
hmm, i seem to be in need of an organizer.
monday 21 : out with khel. finish history case study.
tuesday 22: work 4pm-11pm.
wednesday 23: spring concert. 6pm-10pm.
thursday 24: technival. work on "pretty"
friday 25: work 7pm-11pm. ian's bday dinner.
saturday 26: work 11am-3pm. cotillion practice 3:30pm-7pm.
sunday 27: work 7am-1pm. church 7pm. |
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| MCHAPPY DAY
so i asked my manager for a 2-week off. *hopefully* i'll get another job by then, so i can finally quit without them asking me to stay every shift. haaay.
on the bright note: as ive told people, something something happened 2sundays ago that triggered(sp?) my happy button. and NOW, i think i know what it is. 
so this time, im not fighting it anymore. que sera sera darlings. |
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| GRRRRR.
so much for having such a happy day. arrrgh, just sooo freaking angrrray. daaamn it. this whole cramoleash is just sooo freaking arrrgh. haaay, sigh dude.
on the happy note, day1 for april's bday. went to this sushi place and awwwwie the waiter was soooo nice. i wanted to give him 30% tip but oh well, we only 2.75 change on us. hahaha. oh well, oh well. so next day, uhm....crepes day! |
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| I PROMISE...
1. not to start any more senseless fights with people (who i know will forgive me anyways)
2. to be nicer to this un-nice person.
3. to stop being so goshdarn dramatic.
4. to speak my mind to those who need some mind-speaking to. (if that makes sense to you) |
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