k5m1L3's Xanga

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

Tue, 27 Nov 2007 11:58:19 GMT

do you ever just get that feeling where you don't want to talk to anybody? you dont want to smile, and you don't want to fake being happy. but at the same time, you don't know exactly what is wrong either. there isn't a way to explain it to someone who doesn't already understand. if you could want anything in the world it would be to be alone. people have stopped being comforting.. and being alone never was. at least when you're alone no one constantly asks you what is wrong and there isn't anyone who wont take 'i don't know' for an answer. you feel the way you do just BECAUSE. you hope the feeling will pass soon and that you will be able to be yourself again, but until then all you can do is wait..

Sunday, May 20, 2007

Sun, 20 May 2007 22:45:20 GMT

no electricity at mcD today, so i got to go home early! yay!

hmm, i seem to be in need of an organizer.

monday 21 : out with khel. finish history case study.
tuesday 22: work 4pm-11pm.
wednesday 23: spring concert. 6pm-10pm.
thursday 24: technival. work on "pretty"
friday 25: work 7pm-11pm. ~~ian's bday dinner~~.
saturday 26: work 11am-3pm. cotillion practice 3:30pm-7pm.
sunday 27: work 7am-1pm. church 7pm.

Thursday, May 03, 2007

Thu, 03 May 2007 05:30:34 GMT

MCHAPPY DAY

so i asked my manager for a 2-week off. *hopefully* i'll get another job by then, so i can finally quit without them asking me to stay every shift. haaay.

on the bright note: as ive told people, something something happened 2sundays ago that triggered(sp?) my happy button. and NOW, i think i know what it is.

so this time, im not fighting it anymore. que sera sera darlings.

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

Tue, 24 Apr 2007 01:00:58 GMT

GRRRRR.

so much for having such a ~~happy day~~. arrrgh, just sooo freaking angrrray. daaamn it. this whole cramoleash is just sooo freaking arrrgh. haaay, sigh dude.

on the happy note, day1 for april's bday. went to this sushi place and awwwwie the waiter was soooo nice. i wanted to give him 30% tip but oh well, we only 2.75 change on us. hahaha. oh well, oh well. so next day, uhm....crepes day!

Monday, April 23, 2007

Mon, 23 Apr 2007 03:14:41 GMT

I PROMISE...

1. not to start any more senseless fights with people (who i know will forgive me anyways)
2. to be nicer to this un-nice person.
3. to stop being so goshdarn dramatic.
4. to speak my mind to those who need some mind-speaking to. (if that makes sense to you)

Thursday, April 19, 2007

Thu, 19 Apr 2007 00:53:47 GMT

frustrated.

but then i realised i was just a phone'call away from untangling myself out all of the frustration. thanks woman, ur the best.

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

Tue, 10 Apr 2007 16:08:52 GMT

An old man was sitting on a bench when a teenager with a rainbow mohawk walked by.
The old man stared at him.
Seeing him stare, the teenager said
"Whats the matter old-timer, never done anything crazy in your life?"
The old man replied
"Many years ago, I got drunk at a wild party
& had sex with a parrot.
I was wondering if you were my son"

hahaha. sorry but i find this very funnay.

Thursday, April 05, 2007

Thu, 05 Apr 2007 05:13:34 GMT

oh gaaaawd, my head hurts.

1. cant find the right hall.
2. cant find affordable caterers.
3. ghieghie dilemma.
4. parents being old skool.
5. strike 2. one more, and im out.
6. history test tmrw.
7. 1984 test tmrw(?)
8. literature elizabethan journal.
9. malaguena sucks.

Saturday, March 31, 2007

Sat, 31 Mar 2007 04:22:53 GMT

friday. 10:20pm.

it feels like one of those cliche'd movies, where the parents want a certain person for their youngest daughter. and the father becomes very adamant on that decision, very firm to have the responsible, smart-ass, and self-driven guy hooked up with his care-free stubborn daughter. only, the catch in my story, the guy's an asshole.

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

Wed, 28 Mar 2007 06:03:28 GMT

11:57pm.

i seriously just wanna cancel this whole debut thing. daamn it. but i dnt wanna give up on this, especially since khel gave me his lecture about the debut being too big-of-a-thing for me too handle. i just wanna spend the 3grand on shopping or maybe a trip to paris. but urrgh, i just wanna prove him wrong. i mean, i dnt wanna have this debut if i cant have it perfect.

gaaah. especially right now people are being gay. one of the 18roses is backing out. the other one i had a fight with. and michael is being extra-gay right now. kenneth is doing math. april and leah are already sleeping. roxanne's in okanagan. i just had a recent argument with my sister. and i dont feel like talking to anthony right now. so basically, the people i usually have this kind of talk with are, well, unreachable. but as ppl say, writing is talking without interruption.

but ofcourse, i do miss that interruption and the laughing in-betweens.

haaay. screw this.